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Monday, May 05, 2008

Due to some random erg of energy in my nerves i followed a link to a blog by someone i knew, and voilia, here i am, blogging.

Be it a spark of inspiration, or a compulsion, i just had to blog... However, i pondered, what were blogs supposed to be? Remembering some old blogs i've read, they all consisted of rantings and personal feelings, or things that should have been said in person. But that is not what i want my blog to be. Maybe i will rant just a wee bit but whats the harm? I once faced the question, "If blogs are online diaries and diaries are supposed to be private, aren't blogs oxymoronic? (flashback to GP lesson, Why is global culture an oxymoron?) So this blog here aint goanna be no diary my friend, its going to be an outlet to share things or thoughts i feel that are interesting and significant. Call it a project to see for myself what I will write about. Its the corny "searching for yourself" thingamajig im doing.

Going back to where i started, i was (ok lets used "inspired" since it sounds nicer) inspired to blog after randomly reading the blog of an old chinese tuition friend/classmate (hmm how do u categorise someone whom you know from tuition but dont exactly know in real life?). Then recalling a few other blogs from other friends, i realised that their blogs are their intellectual and cognitive outlets, instead of a place to say emo stuff and post pics of yourself camwhoring. If only i had blogged consistently through the nelson/helen/school/choir period. Cos i'd be able to look back and laugh at it when its all over.

Back to the tuition buddy, her name was zilin, an exceptionally smart girl i'd say, though she's probably too modest to even acknowledge the fact. I recall going to my tuition teacher's house in sec 2/3, chionging chinese essays and memorising vocab. Occasionally when my teacher gets occupied or goes for a break, i get to see through a window into another world. Zilin was from RGS, i think she topped her level but she never mentioned it once (modest yea?) and i only found out when my tuition teacher told me. I'd hear interesting stories about philosophy lessons and magic tricks, and loads of discussions about the world around us. I still recall the time when we were pondering why do we feel cooler in water than on land. She explained that as water has a higher latent heat capacity than land, the water has to gain more heat for the temperature to rise, thus it stays cooler than the land! I only undestood it last year in J1 during thermal physics.... way to be advanced... she was only a year older than me.

BAck to the blog again, I shall link it here for reference, http://zilin.wordpress.com/ Remembering blogs from benjamin,(primary school) to gernaine(secondary school) to the latest milton(tpjc), i have this dreadful feeling that im regressing and i am not thinking enough. Thus i have come up with a theory.

T=k/(S^Y)+E

where S is social activity(Friends/makan/dinner/mahjong) "bigger number=more activity"
and k is just a proportionality constant
T is Thought activity"bigger number=more activity"
Y is the tYpe of friends "friends who think about their purpose in life score large negatives here"
and E is the environment you are in(e.g. gifted school etc...)

as seen by the equation, the amount of thinking you do generally decreases with the amount of social activity you have.

How i came to the equation? In secondary school, i had a rather small circle of friends, loads of time on my hands. Thus i constantly pondered and mulled over every small little thing. Now i can barely think straight... I attribute it to my constant interaction with people and short travel times. (tanah merah to tampines compared to katong).

and im still amazed at my laziness as i was about to elaborate further on the previous paragraph but i just became too lazy to do it.

hmm...
T=k/(S^Y)+E ?
i think its just life in JC... or the lack of it rather.

[x] im not perfect either ((://*
11:59 PM

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